The Necklace

She was one of those clever enough and charming girls born, as though fate had blundered over her into a family of high achievers. She had no natural genius, no means of getting known, understood. She took as many advanced courses as her ability and her advisors would allow, but she was as unhappy as though her schedule were beneath her; for students of her caste and class believe that the number of advanced classes is the only mark or rank of note.

She suffered endlessly, feeling herself born for better things—for advanced calculus and physics, for advanced art history and language, most importantly for admission to a highly selective college. She suffered for the poorness of her schedule, for her classmates who were also bright but not brilliant, for the meanness of her curriculum—reading Othello rather than Hamlet, Twain rather than Hawthorne. The sight of students taking even lower classes and applying to local or state colleges aroused heart-broken regrets and hopeless dreams in her mind. She imagined ivy covered walls, vast saloons hung with antique silks and rare volumes, exquisite dorm room furniture and individual thermostats created just for ragers with intimate friends, classmates who were sought after, whose homage roused every other woman’s envious longings.

When she sat down for class with her pre-calculus rather than a calculus book, her classmates exclaimed delightedly: “Ah, trigonometric identities! What could be better?” she imagined double integrals and students with inscrutable smiles discussing Herodotus and the Persian Wars.  

She had no soccer trophies, no student council victories, no positions of leadership, nothing. And these were the only things she loved; she felt she was made for them. She longed to charm, to be desired, to be wildly attractive and sought after. She had a classmate who had been admitted early decision to a highly selective college. She refused to visit with the classmate because she suffered so keenly when she returned home. She would weep whole days, with grief, regret, despair, jealousy, and misery.

One afternoon her mother came home with an exultant air, holding a large email in her hand.

“Here is something for you,” she said.

Swiftly she opened the email on which were printed these words:

“The Admissions Committee of a Second-Tier-but-not-Second-Rate College request the pleasure of your company for the graduating class of 2023. Congratulations on your acceptance; we look forward to seeing you in the fall.”

Instead of being delighted, as her mother had hoped, she flung her laptop petulantly across the room, murmuring:

“What do you want me to do with this?”

“Why, darling, I thought you’d be pleased. This is a great occasion.”

She looked at her mother out of furious eyes, and said impatiently: “And what courses would I take at such a school?”

Her mother had not thought about that; she stammered:

“Why the very same courses that are offered at the highly selective schools. They look very nice to me. It is the same information after all. Aristophanes is Aristophanes…”

Mathilde attended the Second-Tier-but-not-Second-Rate College. But she did not enjoy herself. Not did she enroll in any courses in which she had a sincere interest. She worked endlessly, beyond her capacity, eschewing genuine interaction with classmates or professors, interested only in her grades and whether or not the information in the lecture would be asked about on the exam. She avoided authentic collaboration with classmates, viewing them as competitors for scarce graduate school admissions opportunities rather than companions on a shared journey.

When she was admitted to graduate school, she uttered a cry of delight, but her enthusiasm was short lived. Again she stayed in the library studying until closing time, her infrequent breaks for speed beer pong and one-night stands with young men whose imperfections and names she chose not to remember. Upon graduation she got a job in a large law firm, putting in 90-hour weeks. Even when she made partner she continued her unrelenting toil, ignoring opportunities for romance, marriage, family, or connection of any kind.

Having consumed fast foods high in nitrate content and glucose while working through meal times at her desk, Mathilde’s first myocardial infarction came at 65 followed by a series of apoplexies of growing intensity. Her friend came to visit her in the intensive care ward. At first the friend did not recognize her and was surprised to find herself familiarly addressed by someone whom she took to be a stranger. “But… Madame…” she stammered. “I don’t know you. You must be making a mistake.”

“No, I am Mathilde, your lab partner from chemistry class all those years ago.”

Her friend uttered a cry. “Oh! My poor Mathilde, how you have changed!...”

“Yes, I have had some hard times since I saw you last, and many sorrows. And all on your account,” Mathilde said.

“My fault, how?” Her friend replied.

“You remember that early decision you received 50 years ago? I wanted that sort of recognition as well.” Mathilde went on: “I wanted a life like yours with an early decision acceptance and an undergraduate experience at a big name college. I wanted acknowledgment and the deep felt sense of satisfaction that comes from being admitted to a college where many students are rejected. In pursuing similar dreams I have ignored all other pursuits that might make me distinguishable as a member of the human species.” Mathilde paused to take a labored breath. “Well, it’s over at last, and I’m glad indeed. I will leave my estate to a highly selective college. There is every possibility that my name will be inscribed on a plaque that will be put up near the finely polished wood by the stair in the Student Union. ”

Her friend deeply moved took her two hands. “You say you have hurtled down the road to nowhere on my account?” her friend gasped. “But you know I became a writer. My partner and I live on a working farm in Vermont with our three children. None of our neighbors nor any of my readers know where I did my undergraduate studies let alone under what decision plan I was admitted to college all those years ago.”

To reread the original Guy de Maupassant from which the above is unabashedly pilfered, click here.

One thought on “The Necklace

  1. David H Craig

    As always, I wholeheartedly agree with you. I would add, however, that students do have to be encouraged (pushed) to do at least some things academically they don’t want to do. Otherwise, someday they might read an article like yours and wonder why it was titled, “The Necklace, ” and who the heck is Mathilde? (My English teacher wife loved it!)

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